Week 31: Day 6

Gooooooood morning!!!

Sorry I haven't been around.  No excuses will be shared.  Trust me, I have lots, though.  I just woke up and don't have my thoughts about me enough to have a great posting, but here are some bullet points I would like to share...

*  I officially signed up and paid my fee for Zombie Buffet 5K!  I signed up as a runner and chose wave 2 as my first choice or wave 3 as my second choice.  Basically, they are going to "release" the runners in 4 different waves and each of those waves will determine how many zombies you are likely to encounter during your run.  It's all very technical.  Hahaha!  I cannot wait.  I have thinking about a costume...not completely sure exactly what just yet, but cheerleader seems like an okay costume to run in, wouldn't you agree?

*  A few of the girls from my Mayor's Challenge 5K team have started training with the various offerings already!!  If you are interested, check out their website here for a list of all the groups that are meeting and when.  After the half marathon, I plan to meet at the McCabe Community Center for their 9 am runs on Saturdays.  Also, the Green Hills YMCA is offering trainings during the week on Tuesday and Thursdays at 11:30 (and Fridays).  You do not have to be a member if you are working towards the Mayor's Run! 

*  I have signed up for Shrinkvivor 2011!!  It is a 7 week Challenge offered up here.  Looks like a lot of fun and a good way for me to get back on track and have someone else tell me what to do!  Plus, you all know this girl likes a little competition.  ;)  I encourage you all to join up!!  There is even a non-weight loss group for those who want to participate in the " weekly physical challenges, check-ins, immunity idols, tribal councils" without losing any weight.  The registration lasts until Wednesday, September 21st, which is when they will randomly place you on a team of 7 and the challenge will begin on the following Wednesday, September 28th.

That's all my points for today, I think.  I am heading out in about an hour for my 10-miler, and then next weekend is the HALF!!  I am very excited.  I got a new shirt last night (yes, I will be wearing it for my run today to "test it out") and I am now looking for a white runner's skirt.  The black one would work fine, but I think a white one would be "prettier" with the socks I have chosen.  I'm such a girl, right?  This week I will only be doing 9 miles total throughout the week and I am definitely using Thursday as a FULL rest day.  Friday will be a "cross training with the kids" day...no plans yet, but I will try to at least be a little bit active with them to get my "jitters" out! 

Diet-wise, I don't know what to say.  I wish I could say I've been all good and on point...but I haven't.  I have been allowing myself bites here and nibbles there and a full slice of pizza last night.  It's just been hard!  For several reasons.  It seems that on days when I don't run (which suppresses my appetite for a good 2-3 hours), I am starving, like, alllllll day long!  I will eat the same breakfast as on any other day, but it will just do nothing but seem to fuel my hunger.  Very frustrating!  I should be using my Sensa, but I keep forgetting to sprinkle it on my foods!  Also, when I have a whey protein shake, or I'm eating a piece of fruit (like an apple or peach), I can't use it.  It's hard to form a habit with this, for some reason.  I have never been a big "seasoner" once my food is ready to be eaten, so that may be one problem.

Know what?  Basically...dieting is HARD.  It has become harder now that I've lost a lot of weight.  Hovering between 50 and 55 pounds lost is awesome, but I keep thinking about a time in my life when I weighed what I weigh now and I wanted to lose weight!  I want to have the stamina for that girl!  I will not, will not, will NOT give up.  I plan to kick ass at the Shrinkvivor Challenge and finish up these 40 weeks with a BANG!  I may be behind schedule, but that is NO reason to think I should stop here.  I can totally do this.

I found these pictures online...look how skinny my leg looks!
And, no, I am not wearing shin guards.  Haha.

Yeeeehaw!!  Have a great day,
xoxo

Week 23: Day 3

If you didn't get a chance to see the comment on yesterday's post - the "LJ Challenge", uhm, challenger reported a weigh-in!  He has lost 9.3 pounds and I have lost 6...of the 30 required to WIN!  Fun.  Way to go, LJ!  I was totally going to send out an email or Facebook message to ask, but I promptly forgot.

This has been happening a lot, to be honest.  I know I've mentioned my extreme forgetfulness before, but it sort of seems to be getting ridiculous.

Anyways, I just wanted to post a motivating quickie.  Mainly for myself.  I have been SO down and frustrated lately and I really think it's been affecting my life as a whole.  Not just in the weight loss area.  Yesterday I found myself snacking on crackers (at least they were whole wheat, right?) dipped in Nutella.  Oh, why on earth did I buy the jar of Nutella?  It's so freakin' good.  Mmmmmmm. 

Back to business.  :)  As I am snacking and rolling my eyes at my sweet baby girl screaming once again - we are having "nap refusal" week, apparently - I thought, you know why your damn weight isn't moving, missy???  It's because you are not even HALF as focused as you were in the first several weeks!  You think running and working out justifies extra snacking, which is one of the reasons this weight loss fight has been lost so many times before!  Yes, you look great.  Yes, you have come a long way...but look at all these blogs out there of women who have lost 80, 90, 100+ pounds and are still doing great!  190 is NOT a comfortable weight, no matter what I tell myself.  170 is comfortable.  But that is still 20 pounds away, lady.  SO GET ON IT.

I can be a little blunt when it comes to internal speak.  :)  My point is this - yes, I'm trying out Jackie Warner's 2 week Jump Start, and yes she says you can "eat what you want", but this doesn't mean I have to throw all my knowledge out the window.  This doesn't mean "eat when you aren't hungry", it doesn't mean "eat when the kids are whining".  It simply means, choose from these items when you are hungry.  When you have eaten these items and become hungry again, then eat.  Until you are NO LONGER HUNGRY.  I think my "hungry" meter was broken a long, long time ago...but it doesn't mean it's not fixable!

Okay, that's all for today.  This morning's run was fantastic...my legs were kinda burning because I mapped a new route with some great hills, but it was a good burn.  I have 2 or 3 more runs to do in these shoes because last night I ordered some fabulous, awesome new running shoes!!  I am so excited. 

Super cool, right???

Well, it sounds like the wild bunch is up and ready to fight...time to get to referreeing!