I weighed in this morning, and I'm just going to go on record as saying I will only accept 40 pounds lost over the next 20 weeks. Ugh.
I am going to have a quick pity party. Or something like that.
I worked SO hard and went SO far! I had so many people supporting me in various ways, I took up running and honestly feel in the best shape of my LIFE at this point! I ran a whole freakin' marathon! I laughed at signing up for a measly 5K! I looked at a 2 mile run on the schedule as a joke and always ran at least 1 extra! I had family and friends all rooting for me and cheering me on along the way. I lost 54 pounds!! WHAT HAPPENED?? I have the excuses...I moved. Started a new job. New job just so happens to be in a deliciously yummy awesome restaurant where the bread and pasta is a'plenty. I still have 3 kids at home full time. I began making new friends. Had to find a new church. Etc. Etc.
I am still so frustrated to step on the damn scale this morning and see this:
Grrr. 218.8?? From my beginning (almost 2 years ago) weight, I am still at least down 20. If I have to find a stupid silver lining.
Can you tell I am disappointed? I don't know what I was expecting, but it wasn't this. It just wasn't.
So, still...40 pounds down would be 178.8...that sounds like a lovely goal to me! I am going to try this a little bit differently and set mini goals throughout. The math might not work out short term, but it should all end up being about 2 pounds per week at the end. Considering the way I have been eating and drinking and just generally not caring lately...well, I expect some rather quick loss in the beginning. I have partnered up with my sister and a co-worker (and possibly more people soon!) to set a goal for the month of December. We have our company Christmas party on January 2nd, so each of us have set a number of pounds we would like to lose before the party. Because I am promising nothing on that night! :) Just kidding. I will actually plan to be very conscientious of what I eat and drink that evening and definitely up the workout on the day of and the day after.
I am getting ahead of myself, though. Starting this morning I got a good night's sleep (hooray!) and did some light cleaning of my daughter's bedroom before blending up 2 juiced apples, ice, and a slim fast shake. It made a huge frothy mess, but it was actually quite delicious! Here's proof...
So, shake number one is down for the day! I will be eating a 500 calorie lunch with the family and I will pack some veggies and a shake for tonight at work. My December goal is 19 pounds because I think it is very important for me to get below 200 quickly! I realize this sounds a bit high, but I have NOT been drinking water and I have been eating way too many carbs for a while. Including daily M & M's. Seriously. DAILY. I began putting them in my yogurt for breakfast. It's freakin' good. :) I am also going to cut out my morning coffee because I have become accustomed to creamer in there and I think it is better to just cut it out entirely.
I'm thinking the first 19 pounds will be easy. It's the ones after that that are going to s-u-c-k. However, maybe I should join the girls and their 10 pound December goals? Just so I don't get discouraged if the first 19 fight me? Ok. 10 pound December goal it is.
I also kinda want to get some "prizes" for myself. When I lose 10 pounds, I am buying a brand new Bible. A super cute one with the tabs in it and maybe even a fancy case! Oooooh.
All right. Enough for now. Time to head to the grocery store and restock our bare fridge!! Have a great day,
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